Yay, the A Levels have finally ended! Okay fine... it has ended like 2 weeks ago for me liao. -_-''' But hey, this is my 1st post since then lor. Anyway Sally said she wanted me to post sooner, cos being in HK, she hasn't been reading simplified Chinese characters for a long time. But i chose to post in English (or Singlish) instead. XD Haha sorry ya!
Well actually i decided to post in English this time cos im feeling rather sian now. It really depends on whether im in a more "Chinese mood" or a more "English mood", with the former happening usually when im feeling more emotional and the latter when im feeling neutral. And in this case, sianness is a rather "neutral" emotion i guess. Lol.
As you can see, i must be really sian to be crapping like this. Prior to and during the A Levels, i was actually envisioning the post-As to be a time where i can maximise my time to engage in leisure activities which i enjoy doing. But yet it has now degenerated into a prolonged period of perpetual nua-ing. And i mean nua-ing without play.
Okay maybe i should talk a little about the A Level exams. My 1st papers were Chinese Language & Literature (CLL). Overall i guess it was phenomenal cos this is the 1st time im able to complete all the questions on time, or at the very least attempted everything... though actually i fell a little short of the 13.5-pages-in-3-hours target for paper 2. However, i was disappointed with how i fared for the guwen (ancient text) component of paper 1, which is supposedly my strength. I guess regardless of my result for CLL, i should have been able to gain one higher grade if i had studied sufficiently for guwen.
GP was a total disaster. i dare say i had never performed so badly for GP before. It was even worse than my promos last year, which happened as i was half-asleep during the exam. Don't feel like talking too much about GP.
Then next was Maths, which happened to be a perculiar case for me as I have never passed Maths during my 2 years in JC. 0.O The papers were more difficult than 2007's, particularly given that last year's papers were no kick to many out there. I came out after doing paper 1 thinking i would get like 61 marks, but after calculation realised i would get 43. As for paper 2, i camed out somewhat comfident of achieving 90+, but ended up with 61. >< Thus, the average of the total is 52, which is a D. From the perspective of a long-term U grader for Maths, a D might seem like a major improvement. But in absolute terms, D is far from good when in reality, 9 in 10 HC students get A for Maths in the A Level (2007 stats). How do i reconcile this fact? Pinning my hopes on the bell-curve is useless as it will at most push me to C, and im very doubtful of whether the bell-curve exists in the 1st place.
Economics was a morale shaker for almost everyone, excluding me. Shocking? Well don't be. The only reason why i had a "okay feeling" is because im simply too lousy to appreciate the difficulty involved. By the same argument, I would say that i screwed up only slightly, yet my "slightly screwed-up" performance would in fact constitute a major screw-up on other people's part if they had performed the way i did. In fact, this is the subject where im not even confident of passing. "Okay" paper? Yeah right....
The only subject where i had a real shot at an A is my H1 Chemistry. Keeping my fingers crossed...
And thus, my realistic estimation of my grades is DDDDA. No kidding, im not that kind of people who claim they did badly but eventually get straight As. Thus, by right, I should be delighted if i managed to get some Bs or Cs. But would i? Especially when everyone around me will be gettings at least 3 As. It is this sad truth of my circumstances that i don't know how to face up to reality.
Okay enough about the exams. I guess i should update you on what im doing these days. After my exams ended on 14th Nov, i started on my preparation for the NAFA Grade 9 Erhu Exam. Don't ask me why im still taking Grade 9 when i already got my NUS Grade 8 three years ago, which is equivalent to the NAFA Grade 9. Too complicated to explain lar.
And then on the day of the Erhu exam, 25th Nov, i screwed up big time again. Well done man. Almost everything that could have gone wrong went wrong. And somehow, the feeling seems uncannily similar to how i did for GP....
When will i post next? I dunno... even though i have already planned on a series of themed entries to post, im really too lazy to do so. What is it about? Wait till then ba... if i ever decide to post at all. Zzzz sian... tired liao. Back to nua-ing.
