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POST A LEVELS SIANNESS

2008-11-27T15:26:00.005+08:00

Yay, the A Levels have finally ended! Okay fine... it has ended like 2 weeks ago for me liao. -_-''' But hey, this is my 1st post since then lor. Anyway Sally said she wanted me to post sooner, cos being in HK, she hasn't been reading simplified Chinese characters for a long time. But i chose to post in English (or Singlish) instead. XD Haha sorry ya!

Well actually i decided to post in English this time cos im feeling rather sian now. It really depends on whether im in a more "Chinese mood" or a more "English mood", with the former happening usually when im feeling more emotional and the latter when im feeling neutral. And in this case, sianness is a rather "neutral" emotion i guess. Lol.

As you can see, i must be really sian to be crapping like this. Prior to and during the A Levels, i was actually envisioning the post-As to be a time where i can maximise my time to engage in leisure activities which i enjoy doing. But yet it has now degenerated into a prolonged period of perpetual nua-ing. And i mean nua-ing without play.

Okay maybe i should talk a little about the A Level exams. My 1st papers were Chinese Language & Literature (CLL). Overall i guess it was phenomenal cos this is the 1st time im able to complete all the questions on time, or at the very least attempted everything... though actually i fell a little short of the 13.5-pages-in-3-hours target for paper 2. However, i was disappointed with how i fared for the guwen (ancient text) component of paper 1, which is supposedly my strength. I guess regardless of my result for CLL, i should have been able to gain one higher grade if i had studied sufficiently for guwen.

GP was a total disaster. i dare say i had never performed so badly for GP before. It was even worse than my promos last year, which happened as i was half-asleep during the exam. Don't feel like talking too much about GP.

Then next was Maths, which happened to be a perculiar case for me as I have never passed Maths during my 2 years in JC. 0.O The papers were more difficult than 2007's, particularly given that last year's papers were no kick to many out there. I came out after doing paper 1 thinking i would get like 61 marks, but after calculation realised i would get 43. As for paper 2, i camed out somewhat comfident of achieving 90+, but ended up with 61. >< Thus, the average of the total is 52, which is a D. From the perspective of a long-term U grader for Maths, a D might seem like a major improvement. But in absolute terms, D is far from good when in reality, 9 in 10 HC students get A for Maths in the A Level (2007 stats). How do i reconcile this fact? Pinning my hopes on the bell-curve is useless as it will at most push me to C, and im very doubtful of whether the bell-curve exists in the 1st place.

Economics was a morale shaker for almost everyone, excluding me. Shocking? Well don't be. The only reason why i had a "okay feeling" is because im simply too lousy to appreciate the difficulty involved. By the same argument, I would say that i screwed up only slightly, yet my "slightly screwed-up" performance would in fact constitute a major screw-up on other people's part if they had performed the way i did. In fact, this is the subject where im not even confident of passing. "Okay" paper? Yeah right....

The only subject where i had a real shot at an A is my H1 Chemistry. Keeping my fingers crossed...

And thus, my realistic estimation of my grades is DDDDA. No kidding, im not that kind of people who claim they did badly but eventually get straight As. Thus, by right, I should be delighted if i managed to get some Bs or Cs. But would i? Especially when everyone around me will be gettings at least 3 As. It is this sad truth of my circumstances that i don't know how to face up to reality.

Okay enough about the exams. I guess i should update you on what im doing these days. After my exams ended on 14th Nov, i started on my preparation for the NAFA Grade 9 Erhu Exam. Don't ask me why im still taking Grade 9 when i already got my NUS Grade 8 three years ago, which is equivalent to the NAFA Grade 9. Too complicated to explain lar.

And then on the day of the Erhu exam, 25th Nov, i screwed up big time again. Well done man. Almost everything that could have gone wrong went wrong. And somehow, the feeling seems uncannily similar to how i did for GP....

When will i post next? I dunno... even though i have already planned on a series of themed entries to post, im really too lazy to do so. What is it about? Wait till then ba... if i ever decide to post at all. Zzzz sian... tired liao. Back to nua-ing.

随笔随谈

2008-08-22T01:01:00.006+08:00

相信这会是我在Prelims（甚至A Levels）之前的最后一个post吧！呵呵~~有时真的没劲儿动“笔”写blog。非要等到自己思绪万千之时方才有感而发，通过这个渠道来宣泄心中的感慨。

近几个星期来我心情一直都很低落，根本无心读书应付来临的大考。有时期盼得到朋友们的洞悉关怀，但希望总一次次地落空。其实他们是帮不了我的，因为我自己也不知道我真正想要得到些什么。或许我的多愁善感只是“少年不识愁滋味”的无病呻吟，但我却摆脱不了这段日子以来所积累的郁闷。

因为某些缘故而光顾了婧榕的blog，令我有点诧异，没想到婧榕竟是个如此in 的人。我不禁对于自己无法了解朋友的精神世界而感到万分的不安。

但游览婧榕blog却让我有了意外的收获。请看看以下摘来的片段吧：

[Received this email from one of my friends:

"Hi, I just came across this very touching local love story! Joanna is a 17 years old student in National Junior College. Like any other Singaporeans, she lives in a HDB flat and eats at coffeeshop. But she believes that she has a curse: She believes that whatever negative things that she said will come true. Jacky, a classmate of Joanna, believes that Joanna is not suffering from any “curse”. He believes that Joanna is just suffering from some mental illness. When their paths crossed, a touching love story began. Read their bittersweet love story at http://www.goodybooks.com/ibelieveyou.htm ! Over ten thousand readers in Singapore had read their story: now it’s your turn!You can watch the video trailer of the story at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wIDRtEOLWiU "

Read the first chapter le. It's quite nice. Gonna continue to read this story after my exams. ]

这部小说确实写得不错，我读了后也深深地被感动了。如此凄美的爱情故事，虽非惊世骇俗之作，但其大胆的构思却令我赞叹不已。然而，让我更为惊叹的却是同个作者Low Kay Hwa的另一部作品，"A Photogenic Life"。这本书在内容上的深度让我震撼了许久，同时也引发了我对人生、人性的思考，无形中也加深了我内心的惆怅。原来我们的生活都正如一个人为照相所摆的pose一般虚假。效果究竟是完美的photogenic image？抑或只是可怕的面具？就让我们一起尾随主人公Lindy进入她的内心世界吧... ...

在此我摘取了书中一些发人深省的话：

"There is a very indistinct difference between not remembering and forgetting: When we don’t remember, the memory still lingers at the back of our mind, threatening to pulse on us anytime. When we forget, we just don’t remember."

"How fragile is life? Strong enough to keep us alive, yet weak enough to kill us."

有兴趣就去读吧。我本身一定会去订购这两本书的。夜深了，再见... ...

小小的思愁之录

2008-04-13T02:28:00.004+08:00

看完了由婧妍、王茜和林峰在“华中——国大文史专题发表会”有关《色，戒》的呈现，我不由得思潮起伏，黯然神伤。在这夜深人静的时刻，产生了想要写写 Blog 的莫名冲动。呵呵~~应该可称意识流吧。（切记，以下言论不与《色，戒》挂钩。）

不知何故，我突然意识到，或更确切地说，有意识地意识到（i.e. 非无意识地）自己原来是个矛盾的个体。一方面，我一直向往着更高的精神层次，但在另一方面我却摆脱不了尘世间的功名利禄与七情六欲。或许，正因为一直徘徊在这种僵局里，我一直无法得到我渴望的升华，反之不断地堕落于迂腐与愚昧之中。

消极的人生态度也许让我的生活添加更多的忧愁，但我却找不到积极面对人生的理由。先前提到的矛盾，不断地在我生活中重现。自从来到高中部后，我就一直明白自己的文学功底与程度是远远逊色于他人的。但与此同时，我热爱中华文学和文化的赤诚之心仍然存在着，拂之不去。面对才华上的局限，我明白自己是无法在这方面有所作为的。所以，我就把自己将来的事业目标锁定在心理学这个领域里。但过了一年，我却开始心生疑虑，不知自己的目标是否正确。

茫。

或许你会觉得我写得杂乱无章，没什么探讨性的内容可言，而且对自己内心的感触没有进行全面的解释与剖析。但事实上，我也没这个心思为 blog entry 设定什么文章框架，抑或打算长篇大论地解释什么。我仅仅把它当作宣泄内心苦楚的媒介，且顺便让大家些许地了解我的感受。

不想多说了，后会有期。

I'M BACK

2008-04-07T23:27:00.013+08:00

Hi, ppl. It has really been a long time since i last blogged. Haha to be honest i specially chose this day, just to make it exactly a year. Lol.

When i look back at my blog entries last year, it occured to me that indeed, many things have happened ever since then. From the time of my last blog entry, i have embarked on an especially arduous journey, academically and emotionally.

Most significant and tangible were the setbacks i faced in my studies. During the C1 block tests last year, i scored all Us for my 4 H2 subjects, with only a B in GP to salvage the situation very minimally. As a result, i had to see the dean, Mrs Tan Ai Chin, and was forced to relinquish all my CCA commitments in CO, Huayun and LEP Council. Thereafter, I got 2 Us for Maths and Chem, S in Econs, and Es in CLL and GP in my promos. GP was a pity then, as i had been scoring consistent Bs during normal tests, only to flop the promos simply bcos i was too sleepy to concentrate. But that was not crucial, as getting 2 Us already meant that i had to downgrade a H2 subject to H1 to be promoted to C2. Eventually, i chose to downgrade my weakest subject, chemistry.

Needless to say, the emotional struggle associated with such pathetic results is painful. But what made the entire experience heart-whrenching was that it was coupled with a period of strained relationships with my classmates. The lack of encouragement and friendship from these people whom i spend everyday in lessons with made me depressed, and perhaps very irritable. Given that i was somewhat sucidal during this phase, the support i gained from the close friends i have had since high sch were really timely. I remembered telling Alvin Aw after getting back my promos papers that the only reason why i was alive was because the marginal cost of dying was greater than that of living (using econs as explanation), not bcos living had much benefit per se.

The Dec holidays was a really memorable and fun experience, as i was given the chance to visit Taiwan for 2 weeks based on my LEP scholarship. However, bcos of my poor results last year, the scholarship was revoked early this year. This was a major blow to me, but i recovered from my despair soon enough, with encouragement from friends and my dear senior, Kai Li.

Fortunately, 2008 proved to be a better year, perhaps because I was determined not to make the same mistakes of daoing my tutorials till they snowball like last year. Learning chemistry under the H1 syllabus also made it more fun and less stressful. This is partly due to the syllabus itself, but also partly due to my great tutors, Mr Collin Loy and Mrs Chin, who are really supportive and patient with us. Relationship with my classmates also improved, likely due to the fact that I'm no longer the CLL Rep, and hence they were less likely to bu shuang me due to collection of homework and LEP funds.

Block test 1 this year proved to be a better experience than BT and promos last year. Basically my results are...

H1 Chemistry: U
Mathematics: U
Economics: S
Chinese Language & Literature: D
General Paper: B

Of cos, compared to the rest of the student population, my results is still considered very lousy. But i do see myself taking baby steps towards improvement, especially in CLL and GP. For CLL, i was actually prepared to get S or U, but the D resulting from my heavy mugging in Gu3 Wen2 showed that i am actually capable of scoring if i really put my heart into studying, i.e. i am not as stupid as i think. As for GP, being able to top the class was really unanticipated. Though GP has been my best subject since entering JC, i had not expected myself to score higher than GP pros Zheng Hang and Xianzhe.

Well, I have no idea what the future holds for me... whether i will be able to do better for BT2? Whether i can get silver for NAPFA (army requirement)? Whether the CO concert in June will be successful? Whether my SL project can pull through? Whether i will do well for my 'A' Levels? Whether i can enter university? Whether i can get a scholarship? And also, whether i will be posting another blog entry this year (lol), or let this blog rot for another year again? Haha, I do hope the best will come true. Shall jiayou, mug and stop slacking! XD

为了华乐而放弃黄城... ... 值得吗?

2007-04-07T22:12:00.000+08:00

Hi, everyone. The Chinese Society & Huangcheng elections + xiao huang cheng just ended on a high note today. Congrats to all new Chinese society zhiwei and Huangcheng chouwei members, especially to my dearest friends, Wee Lic (cw ticketing), Hui Ying (cw secretary), Pei Ying (cw cuichang), Kian Yang (zw Vice-President cum cw Vice-Zongjian), Kah Ming (cw sheying leader) and Tania (zw public relations cum Gefang Vice-President). Special congrats to Hui Ying, whom i supported the most. See? Have confidence and you made it! Haha.

Many people has asked me this question: Why aren't you running for sheying leader?

Well, here is my reply. I had badly wanted to stay in huangcheng and serve as a sheying leader, but this was impossible because of my other CCA, Chinese Orchestra. Hence, the decision was to be made to choose between huangcheng and CO, but yet the 2 were mutually exclusive. As what zhengyou said, if i stay in huangcheng, i will have to quit CO sooner or later. I knew the obvious choice had to be CO, cos i did not want to waste the past 4 years of effort in CO. After the sec schs' SYF which passed recently, I realised that I still loved CO dearly, at a time when I thought I had lost all my interest in CO. I did not expect myself to feel so much dispair when the high school CO did not clinch gold with honours. No matter what, CO is my first love, and I should not ditch her for a second love, esp when I still love her deeply. With this, I made my choice to leave huangcheng.

But till today, I has not gotten over this decision. The situation was made worse when I learnt that Rui An is not running for sheying leader, which means only Kah Ming is running. This means that as long as i decide to run, I will be auto-walkover. This was indeed an attractive offer, yet there were dire consequences. At times, I wanted to shout out: can i run? But my conscious mind held me back. It was quite heart-wrenching to see an opportunity gone just like that. However, on the bus home. I finally sorted out my thoughts. As a member of huangcheng, I am not one who can contribute a lot. I had little expertise in photography to offer. In short, i won't make much difference to huangcheng, but I know that I can make a difference to CO if I try. Not that CO needs me, but I feel that I can contribute more to CO rather than huangcheng. And hence, i relinquished.

But in a bid to keep my final connection with Chinese Soc, I auditioned for Huayun, and managed to scrape through successfully. I hope that by doing so, I can still proudly say that, I am still a member of Chinese Soc, even if I leave huangcheng. However, I wish to clarify that this is just one of my reasons for joining huayun. Im definitely interested in huayun. Its not fair to huayun to say that it is merely a substitute for huangcheng. This is definitely not the case. Whatever the future holds for me, I really don't know. But I hope that when I look back at today in the future, I will not regret my decision.

Thank you, huangcheng. I love u.

黄城 FOREVER...

2007-03-15T01:45:00.000+08:00

It has been 3 days since huangcheng 07 ended (or to be relatively exact, 75 hours). im sorta starting to recover from what Huang Pei calls pHD (post-huangcheng depression). for these past 3 days, i've been in a rather dazy state, relinquishing myself all the way and self-indulging in the fond memories of huangcheng. to be honest, i've been spending my time sleeping since mon, but whenever i am awake, im always thinking of huangcheng, especially reminiscing the lines of the actors. For some reason, huangcheng seemed so close... but yet so far, as though 3 months instead of 3 days have passed.

Hmm im thinking... how time had passed since the day i stepped into B101 to register for huangcheng. usually for me, time passes very slowly, no matter how ppl says that times flies when you are enjoying yourself. but this time, these 3 months have really gone like the wind. i guess... i guess huangcheng has really really made me happy. such is the extent of gratification that huangcheng has provided me with. as what liang wen fu said in his recording for the opening video, "once a huangcheng ren, forever a huangcheng ren". I can't really remember what he added on after that, but i guess his words sum up my love for huangcheng.

I will take the chance to thank everyone in huangcheng who has made this performance possible, with special thanks to the following people:

My 2 摄影 group leaders: Yu Yin and Cheryl
My 摄影 mates: Rui An, Kah Ming, Jasmin, Julianna, Qin Yuan, Mei Jie, Hui Ling & Xia Yan
The 3 总监s: Xin Yu, Ming Ming and Yun Zhou
The directors and SMs of the 3 plays, especially for 等巴士, the one which im attached to for filming
All actors, especially actors of 等巴士: Sua Yu (男主角), Choon Yen (女主角), Kelly (阿嫂), Jun Jie (流浪汉), Hui Ying (失恋女) & Wei Li (男朋友)

Besides that, I would also like to thank everyone who gave me notes and presents. firstly, i would like to thank my beloved sheying leaders Cheryl and Yu Yin for the lovely fish cushion/pillow, the note as well as the ferrero rocher chocholates. 2ndly, thanks to choon yan for the sweets and note. 3rdly, thanks to kah ming for the note. next will be to my dear CO xianyue peeps, hannah, ziwei, shiyu, adela & adeline for the flower. too bad it wilted in the night. )= and last but not least, a mysterious person who gave me a Winnie the Pooh balloon. till now i really have no idea who that person is... but thanks anyway. oh still got... as 摄影 group, thanks to Ming Ming for the box of ferrero rocher and the actors for the large amounts of sweets. We appreciate it a lot.

Im contemplating whether to join Chinese Society (the overall of huangcheng) after that, due to my CO commitments. it seems that it is impossible to join both, as both require lots of time (at least according to seniors). if so i guess i will choose CO, but then again, if im not selected for SYF this year, i may choose Chinese Soc instead. Ahh im confused, cos i heard that for the later part of the year, there will be not much activities for huangcheng, which means that it seems possible for me to hold membership in both CCAs. but den how about next year? Let's see the example of Samuel, who is a member of CO but not Chinese Soc, yet he was in huangcheng for both years. issant that a case which shows that it is possible to go for both? but den, why did he not join Chinese Soc in that case? what is the difference between joining huangcheng for both years and joining Chinese Soc and huangcheng for 2 years? can someone enlighten me????

Please pls, someone help.

GOODBYE TO YOU MY TRUSTED FRIENDS...

2007-03-08T00:53:00.000+08:00

feeling very emo and depressed now.

yesterday was the release of the results of JAE. ivan, shiju and yinyue went off to other jcs, while chongwee is appealing to go to NJ. 4 out of 25 in the class going off? not necessarily. william is going to switch to a KI class, kai teng is switching to PCME but may not stay in the class & tania may be switching to AEP from LEP. SEVEN... the no. is too big for me to accept, esp when most of the ones going off are my best friends in class. 5 of them come from CLL, which leaves 5 others (excluding me). if we exclude the physics people altogether, i'm left with only 2 good friends taking the same combi as me: peiying and kahming. how can this be possible??? suddenly, it seems as though everyone has deserted me. 众叛亲离.

William shared with me his journal of thoughts for the last time today, after which, we will not be classmates anymore. (bcos of huangcheng he won't be coming to school for the rest of the week) never thought that i would miss him so much. it was only till today that i realised how much i had depended on him for studies and emotional support throughout the past 3 months........... 3 months??! how fast 3 months have passed. it only seemed yesterday that our class 07S61 was formed.

i dunno wad to say... im really not in the right mind to blog. but no matter what, I wish everyone the best in their future endeavours. hope we meet again.

MY 17TH BIRTHDAY

2007-02-26T22:44:00.000+08:00

haha, im back everyone! last Sat, 24th of Feb was my 17th birthday, so basically this post will be dedicated to this special occasion. hahaha.

erm let me see, firstly i would like to thank all of my friends who bothered and cared for my birthday, through various ways. special thanks to the peeps who gave me presents: alvin, jianting, zixian, kahming, joanne, yiwen, ziwei (in order of present appearance). i really appreciate it. (certain presents really cost a bomb!) Of course, thanks to my Huangcheng classmates for leading the singing of the birthday song on Sat during Huangcheng. having 100+ people singing for me was really a joyous experience! oh and how can i forget the class singing at Mdm Yeoh's house? dat was really nice too. finally, thanks to all who sent me your regards through sms and msn.

oh and still got... my beloved family, who spent Sat night with me dining at a Korean restaurant. the food was great! thx to my cousin jaryn who bought a birthday cake for me. indeed, this has proved to be a memorable birthday.

well, originally intended to write more... but im feeling quite tired today, especially after a terrifying Chem test today. (shall not talk about it cos really too sad already, + this will clash with the happy theme on top) So see all of ya next time! Love ya all!

问世间

2007-02-20T18:58:00.000+08:00

hi, just returned from Huangcheng CNY Tuan Bai. feeling a little nostalgic now, so i've decided to post 元好问's《迈陂塘·雁丘词》here. no other meaning. enjoy.

问世间情是何物，
直教生死相许?
天南地北双飞客，
老翅几回寒暑!
欢乐趣，离别苦，
就中更有痴儿女。
君应有语：
渺万里层云，
千山暮雪，
只影向谁去!
横汾路，寂寞当年箫鼓，
荒烟依旧平楚。
招魂楚些何嗟及，
山鬼暗啼风雨。
天也妒，未信与，
莺儿燕子俱黄土。
千秋万古，
为留待骚人，
狂歌痛饮，
来访雁丘处。

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A RENEWED BLOG!

2007-02-20T02:52:00.000+08:00

hey, everyone! its being a LOOONGGGGGGG time since i last blogged! so let's congratulate me on the resurrection and revival of this blog! yayyy! haha.

ok with such a happy occasion, my blog skin has to be changed.... to this! hmm... im not sure whether you all will like such a skin, but i love it anyway. beforehand, i actually showed this to my mother, who disapproved, saying its too girlish. but i think its cute lor... and instead of thinking that its girlish, why not think in the other direction. issant choosing such a cute blog skin the best sign that im straight (i.e. not gay)? Lol.

anyway, if you have noticed, the reconstruction of my blog is still incomplete. i seriously dunno when i will find time again to do it... so as what i said on the front page, wait till a month later bah. really sorry arh. time is getting more and more precious.

oh yah, today is the first day of the lunar new year! yay!! i love Chinese New Year! haha, but this year's doesn't seem very interesting. yesterday I went to watch Jack Neo's new film: Just Follow Law, which is basically on life in the civil service. the movie is quite nice... just that i would expect more from such a critically-acclaimed director. the movie is indeed witty and funny, but to me, many of the funny parts seem very disjointed. in essence, the "storyness" (gu shi xing) of the whole film is not very strong. (what good english!)

if u notice, this is a very rushed post, due to the fact that now is 3am in the morning! my goodness. so really sorry for everything. bye!

2006-08-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

The sabbatical week is coming to an end.... so sad. i love sabbats, but this is going to be my last, so i treasure it a lot. well basically, i signed up for the sabbat called "economics for teens", which is basically on well.. economics. (duh) of course i had my own motive in going for this one. firstly is quite obvious, i need ace for ih. but den the most impt reason is that i want to see how econs is like, cos im considering taking it as a subject in jc. so but choosing it as a sabbat, i can see whether i like it. if its postive, den i can take it as a subject in jc, and this will provide me with the basic foundation. if i dun like it, den i can give it up. well so after 4 days of econs, wad is my conclusion? erms well, my answer is "nothing", i can't come to a conclusion. cos like im not sure lor... i think its very interesting, but sometimes i can't really grasp the concept, so i guess if i take it den mebbe (most likely) i will face some difficulties in studying it. so wad can i say? let time and fate decide. lol.

Well the sabbat was interesting, we learnt abt things like the 10 principles of economics, supply and demand, measuring a nation's income, tools of finance... and such. there were concepts like adam smith's devision of labour, postive and normative analysis, the production possibility frontier (ppf), indiosycratic and aggregate risk, compounding and blah blah blah. so it was really fun. the only sad thing is dat we have to face up to the reality dat even financial geniuses are largely unable to beat the market. sad. den wad's the point of economics? but nvm... as least i think learning it will enable us to be more aware of stuff when financial advisors try to con us.

oh and i forgot to mention abt limmy! hes so pro in econs! well basically there were only four sec 4s in this sabbat, and all from lep. lol. they are: me, limmy, xiaolong and yechao. limmy was so pro.. he impressed everyone on the first day with his superb analytical skills. den today, he made history yet again. let me explain: since me and limmy sit together, we were grouped together with a sec 3 who calls himself leecher for the daily presentation assignment. den out of the 8 groups, we were the only one who got 5/5 for each of the items (pricing policy) while the other groups only managed a meer 3/5. such is the pro-ness of our dear limmy! haha.

well, the sabbaticals also brought some weird happenings like the one im going to talk abt. basically, my friend from chij toa payoh (correct or not?) called nerene (correct spelling?)who were part of the exchange tour group to chongqing during the june hols was like asking me on msn how to get to my sch office from the guard house. this was the day before the sabbats. i sent here a map of the sch but i din ask why she wants to go to hci. (or mebbe i din care at that time). den the next day in school, jon goh and i suddenly met her in front of the clock tower. i was quite stunned even though its like i should have expected it. basically she was lost. so jon goh went to class and helped her check the venue for the sabbat she was participating in (which is the mock united nations conference). So well the problem was resolved. but for the next few days, she always stone under the clock tower and keep on half-daoing me when i said hi. ok lor. im used to being daoed. since tmr is the last day of the sabbats le i guess the same would happen. sad.

oh i want to talk abt the little kitten i saw on mon (first day of sabbaticals) on my way to the bus stop in the morning. so cute! it was like whimpering at the grass patch with its big watery eyes. now the problem is dat it is no ordinary street cat. in fact, it was not in the first place. cos the kitten was wearing a cat jacket (or wadever u call it). this means that the cat has an owner but was "disowned" by him. so poor thing. actually i wanted to do something for it like mebbe touch it to give it comfort or some lame action. but den there was this guy there looking at the cat too, so i just went on my way....

dats so cruel of me.

oh yeah, another thing. running parellel to the sabbaticals is the 1st Asia-Pacific Secondary Schools Chinese Debate 2006. well haha it was fun too! in a way, aphelion was forced to attend the prelims and semis of the debate, so we had to go, but for me i went quite willingly. the 2 matches we watched were both hwachong vs other schools, the first being kuan rou sec sch (the most famous Chinese school in m'ysia) and the second being a school from taiwan. honestly, the prelim match with kuan rou was not very interesting, so i shall not talk much abt it. we almost lost actually, and i personally think that kuan rou was slightly better than us. well but nvm. so we got in the semi-finals, which we totally thrashed the taiwan team. in the first debate, our free speaker wenjun sort of screwed up. however this time round, he bounced back with confidence and successfully ousted the taiwanese free speaker. oh i forgot to mention, the taiwan team was the propo and we were the oppo. of course our third speaker ma xiao was the best. he entertained the audience with his powerful voice and charisma. once, ma xiao even made a witty comment that sent the taiwanese third speaker (who was their best) for a moment, lost for words. so obviously, our team emerged victorious. on the other hand, the other semis round was fought between nanyang girls and yue qing from China. sadly, ny lost to yue qing, so our opponents in the finals will be yue qing. the finals will be held tmr... but i wun be present to witness the great competition, cos well i have cca. but well its ok lah, nvm.

actually i want to talk abt the san guo yan yi oil painting exhibition that was held last week, but its a bit de late now, so i guess there wun be a chance, cos i seldom blog. so dats all, bye!

2006-07-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

What a nice day. i suddenly feel the urge to blog, after like about 6 months of inactive blogging. well actually yonghui was telling me abt kengwei and dennis' blog yesterday. so i went to see. well this sorta rekindled my love for blogging - at least for today. coupled with the rgco concert tonight, or rather last night since its past mid-night, these are the two reasons why i suddenly blogged.

today did not start off exactly well, but alas i shall not talk abt bad stuff since im so happy now. anyway since the sec 4s do not have to go for xiaozu prac anymore, i ponned it and went sleeping in my classroom. oh yea and before dat i met yonghui at ny bus stop to pass her the birthday present. seemed very weird when i saw her lor, cos its like i almost never seen her before? so dats why weird weird de. and she seemed so different from her online personality. lols. okay so after dat as i said i went back to class to sleep. den shortly before 4pm, i woke up to go mph to check out things in co. well dennis was like niaoing me for being "conned" by yonghui, but actually he was the one being conned rather then me cos i gave the present willingly but he did not. oh i forgot to state, we SHARED the present. then he was like refusing to pay me for it. only gave me $1. bleah, so evil.

after dat i left for sec 2 ptg, since i was involved with jon goh in advertising for lep. the experience was quite fun. mr hon even come down to check on us. den while i was having so much fun explaining to the sec 2 parents about the diff between lep and bsp, the time was up for me to meet up with the coxy ppl to go for rg concert. its 6pm. so i bade farewell to jon goh and ms ngmy and rushed back to mph. well little did i expect justin to be scolding the co abt attendance stuff. so fierce. haha. so we wasted some time in listening to his lecture. by saying dat i dun mean justin is wrong, i support his action, just dat it cut short our time to go from school to victoria concert hall.

we took bus and tranferred to mrt to get to vch. we were almost late when the concert was beginning, even though ppl were still strolling in. well, i also met andrew from ri, my pri sch classmate. at first i seriously did not expect rgco to be so pro, but it proved me otherwise. den the xianyue were like so meng. the whole concert got 4 songs by xianyue: 1 erhu solo, 1 banhu solo, 1 6-ppl chongzou and 1 qizou. the erhu solo on chun1 shi1 was by sherry, the rg chairperson and the only person i knew in rg. she looked so weird cos her hair was so much dat i cannot see her face. den well, the concert was impressive, and i esp like the chang2 di1 sui2 xiang3. i remember hearing sco play it before, and it was really nice. there were two main melodies, and both were great.

so after dat we actually wanted to go and eat, cos ppl like ben toh, wee kian and the others did not have dinner. but eventually they decided to go junction 8, but since it was not shun4 lu4 for me, i went home, taking the train with wen hao and boon yang.

well this is considered a well-enriched day for me lor, so this resulted in this blog entry u see here. and another thing i realised. my blog design like very outdated alr leh. mebbe i change layout.. in dec.

2006-01-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

其实你不懂我的心

你说我像云
捉摸不定
其实你不懂我的心

你说我像梦
忽远又忽近
其实你不懂我的心

你说我像迷
总是看不清
其实我用不在乎
掩藏真心

怕自己不能负担对你的深情
所以不敢靠你太近
你说要远行暗地里伤心
不让你看到哭泣的眼睛

2005-10-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hi, everyone. Haiz. Received all the exam papers liao...

Maths: 84
Physics: 68
Chemistry: 53
Biology: 54
English: 74

Not very good results, i suppose. Except for Maths and English, the 3 sciences are far below average. This was especially so for Bio, where most people got A1. Remember my last blog entry? See... i indeed flopped Bio..

Ok lor... now my current MSG is about +/- 2.00, based on my calculations. With regards to my overall results, it is:

Chinese: A1
English: A1
Maths: A1
Physics: A2
Chemistry: B4
Biology: B3
IH: A2-B4 (unknown)

This should be it... unless there were some errors in my calculations or the sch's calculations.

Ok. Even talk about exams... it is too depressing. Recently, i've been playing 2 games: Advanced Wars 1 & 2 (given to me by Jian Ting) and Neopets (yes, neopets). Other than that, I've been slacking around, most of the time sleeping and watching TV. Aargh.. I should start doing proper stuff now...

Today is the day that most of the BSP students are going to China, or more specifically, Hangzhou. Let me see... its 10.35pm now, they should be checking in le. Their flight is about 12+am. Haiz... im gonna miss them. Hope that they enjoy their time there.. and dun forget about me! *Sob*

So that's all for now. Bye.

2005-10-18T22:26:00.000+08:00

Hi. Im feeling quite depressed now... even though today marks the end of the EOY exams for me (having being exempted for Chinese). Today.... i have been waiting for today to arrive a long time ago... since like 1 month ago. Even till yesterday, i was thinking about how the exams would finally end the next day.

But no. On the contrary, I am not happy now.

Why?

Simply because i flopped the bio exam. Haiz.. for some reason, bio really affected me. Even though i screwed up the other exams as well, somehow bio was different. I have a very bad feeling about it.

To sum up my feelings today, allow me to show you a Chinese poem that i wrote early this year for an LEP assignment:

心烦意乱如麻，
蹉跎岁月不佳，
务必悬崖勒马，
回顾之下，
怅惘惕然泪下。

Not very well written... but i guess you can understand how i feel. Somehow... this year has been wasted.. for some unknown reason.

Next up is another big challenge: NUS Grade 8 Erhu Exams, of which i totally have no confidence in. Haiz. Seriously don't feel like talking any longer. Bye. = (

2005-09-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

Hi. Suddenly felt like posting an entry now, even though im supposed to be doing revision at this time. I'll continue mugging after this!

Hmm, I just caught the tv ad on Joi Chua's (Cai Chun Jia) album just now and her website was written on it. Funny... i've seen this ad so many times before, yet i've never noticed this line of text on the tv screen. The website, which includes her blog, is: http://www.joichua.com Haha. I like her song quite a lot... but dunno why no one i know likes them. =( If you have her songs, rmb to give me worx!

There's a programme on Channel 8 just now regarding the National Library. I went to watch cause it seems interesting. Basically, it outlines the history of the library and links it to the present new library. Interestingly, the old red-brick library at Stamford Rd (issit?) was actually built by Mr Lee Kong Chian, so i think there's a library within the new complex named after him. This definitely shows his philanthropic spirit. By the way, i am interested in going to the new National Library after the exams. Anyone interested in going with me, pls call me! Haha.

Just briefly talk about today bah. I went to Plaza Singapura today with my mum after going to Mt. E Hospital for a visit. I went searching for something that Guo Yean recommended me some time ago. I don't really know how to describe it. Its something to be found in a gift shop, a soft cube shape thingy, whereby it has different messages on its 6 sides. He told me that NPCC went to buy it for some event and it can be found on the 3rd floor... so since there was some time, i went to hunt for it. However, results were disappointing. Anyway, i felt very lame after searching for something useless for so long. Later i went to Times the Bookshop where my mother bought a few books. Then we went home.

The End-of-year Exams are coming in 2 weeks time. So this is the perfect opportunity to mug! Starting from tomorrow onwards, its the start of my official study period. So i think within these two weeks, there will be no blog entries, and of course, it will be hard to catch me on msn. I'm seriously very very very worried about the 3 sciences, especially Chemistry and Physics. Thus, intense mugging is definitely needed.

So that's all. Hope that this entry is concise enough. Bye!

2005-09-12T12:25:00.000+08:00

Hi, everyone. Its the first day of Term 4 today, 12/9/05, Monday, and the time now is 12.30p.m. What am i doing at home, when its school hours? Obviously... I'm sick. Yup, sick on the first day of school. =( Haiz. sad... But nevermind, the focus of this blog entry is not on my illness, or how i got infected. (Maybe i will touch on this after writing the main topic) The main topic is MAF... the Mid-Autumn Festival Celebrations 2005 organised by HCICO and NYCO, that took place last Friday in HCI. For those who are not in Chinese Orchestra, HCICO organises a MAF celebration annually with a girl's school, and this year its NYGH. Since its so important, i'll start with a proper and formal tone...

9th September 2005, Friday
I woke up very tired... having edited 200 sets of programme booklet one by one manually all because i did not confirm the MAF groupings with my Nanyang counterparts before sending for printing. Anyway, for some particular reason, the atmosphere was very strange that day... right from the start when i woke up all the way after i reached school. I boarded bus 157 (double-decked) and i went to sit on the upper floor. The bus was quite empty. Then after a while, TV mobile started screening a programme on the SPI, Singapore Paranormal Investigators ... which investigate on ghosts and stuff. It started getting cold... (air-con) and everything seemed so weird. When i reached school, i walked all the way to the MPH. The whole area was dark (obvious since its 6 something). Since i still had to fold one by one all the booklets, i went to the concourse benches to sit. The whole situation was eerie... and i was alone, with KKH on my left. i started folding... and all of a sudden... the lights went off (don't forget... its 7am le). i heard some noises, and all of a sudden, a big roar. (just the fountain starting to gush out water). So as you can see, the whole thing was my imagination. very stupid indeed. Haiz. Anyway... i'll continue.

At 7.30 sharp, i went to the MPH to wait for the others, while still desperately folding the programme booklets. Luckily, the girls arrived shortly after and solved the problem quickly. Zhi guang arrived with the keys to open the MPH. After settling all the stuff, the participants arrived. The briefing started... and finally the ice-breakers commenced. (Fast forwarding)

Being one of the photographers of the day, i went around taking pictures. The game for icebreakers was wacko and held at parade square. Sadly, i made a mistake in snapping to many pictures of the game... and used up the first li-ion battery that i brought. But its not wasted, cos there were many candid moments that were featured. Koy Min was gao3 xiao4 lor... refused to pose for the camera. I only managed to take a photo of him by zooming in from far away.

After this was game 1 for Group A and game 2 for Group B. I went to shoot Group B since game 2 was also held at the parade square. Game 2 was made up of 2 parts: 华乐猜猜猜 and 接力赛. The gamemasters are Jie Lun, Keng Wei, Ziyi and Shawn. Game 2 was indeed fun. For 华乐猜猜猜, participants have to send a representative to act out keywords given to them, and let his/her group members guess what it is. 接力赛 is the most fun... cos group members have to tie their hands and legs together and walk together as a group, while answering questions along the way. Jia da was trying to snap pictures of 1 boy and 1 girl together, exploiting the fact that they were unable to move freely. lol.

After this, i followed Group B to the concourse for Game 1, which was organised by Ben, Hannah, Chunyang and Juliana. The name of this game is 嫦娥寻后羿, where participants have to search for clues in hidden places all over the school. Mainly, i followed 2 groups: chenyang and Sua Yu's. The forfeits were the highlight of the game. Forfeit 1 requires them to eat lime; forfeit 2 requires stuffing ice into their shirts; forfeit 3 requires a HCI boy to wear NY uniform and a NY girl to wear HCi uniform. Obviously, the most interesting part was the wearing of Ny uni. Francis was the unlucky guy. But he took it in his stride and did well. Applause. Meanwhile... or rather before that, Yao Hui was the guy in Group A who wore the NY uniform. He looks so chio ... lol.

Up next was lunch for group A and xiaozu practice for group B. The practice was for the skills interaction held later on. Being in A, i followed them to eat. The food were ordered from the Western stall... so everyone enjoyed it. After which, it was xiaozu for Group A and lunch for Group B. Me and Yao Hui (弦乐美女) decided to teach the ny sec 1s. Haiz... their sec 1s are pro-er than ours lor...

So after that, it was Game C for Group A and Dazu practice for Group B. I followed group B once again to the MPH. It was a sad case for Group B, as the school suffered a powe failure at this point of time.... so the whole MPH was hot and stuffy. Nevertheless, their practice was very productive. It was at this point of time that my 2nd li-ion battery was flat. Thankfully, Zhengyou lent me his camera to continue my job. After taking some pictures, i went to the bookshop area to snap Group A playing Game C. It is also composed of 2 parts: 月知，我知，你不知；月会，我会，你不会 and 月宫迷魂阵. The gamemasters are Adeline, Yong Hui, Peng Rong and Yong Lin. Part 1 requires participants to guess the name of songs while part 2 is a question and answer game. Grids are drawn and the level of difficulty of the questions are determined by it.

After which, it was time for Dazu for Group A, so i went back to the MPH. Yao Hui kept scolding me during practice cos i kept playing wrongly. Grrr... how can i forget how to play 攀登? After dazu, it was time for the real skills interaction. Group A was first. Under the skillful guidance of our SC Jia Da, we put up a brave fight against Group B... but lost eventually. Lol. But after this serious part of MAF, we have came to the most interesting part.... the MASS GAME! --> waterbomb!

The mass gamemasters were Shiao Hong, Ming Yi, Phoebe, Yong Jie, Randy and Liu Hao. The "structured" part of the mass game consists of 4 obstacles: 抛个月饼、逃避弓箭、嫦娥“月”过 and 落花流水. i shall not touch too much on these cos i was away in the toilet during this time. haha. By the time i got back to the side field, all the teams had completed the tasks and were off into the free bombing section. This was indeed the best part of MAF. The gamemasters had tied i think more than 1000 waterbombs for our playing. Initially, all was well and i just got hit by a few occasional shots. My first target was Lim Yi, who was standing at the top of the track room, and me, on the field. For some reason, my aiming was off target and i hit Shengbin instead, who was standing beside Lim yi. Lol. I also decided to throw at Zi Wei, who threw one back at me. XD Till that point of time, the best hit was by yueyang, who was clever enough to trick me by calling out, "Eh, Gim Thia." I turned around, and was hit right in the face. haiz... im always so gullible.

But the "best" is yet to come. While i was stoning on the field, i suddenly felt someone grabbing me and locking my arms. Then next, 2 people came rushing down the stairs with pails... and of course, i was pailed. It all happened so quickly... up till now i only knew that hongshen and koy min was involved. Dunno who was the other guy... So instantly, i was drenched wet. After some more water bombing, i went back to the MPH to fetch a dry shirt. I was so wet that even my shoes were soaked lor. But the unfortunate part was that i only brought a shirt, and did not have any shorts to change into. So for the rest of MAF, i was shivering from the wet shorts. Eventually, I decided to take off my shoes and socks. And i went down to the canteen for dinner with my bare feet.

After dinner, all of us went back to the MPH for the prize presentation and the finale: a skit about Chang'e, Hou yi and Yu Tu (Jade rabbit). This was the last event of MAF, and it was time to bid farewell... However, MAF has not started (lol. inside joke)... so some of us in the OT decided to go KAP for supper. There, we chatted and gossiped for quite some time before going home.

Ok, so thats it. This is my last but best MAF. Next year will prove to be a different experience when i return as a retired HCICO member. Lol. Thanks for reading this long and uninspiring blog entry. Bye!

2005-08-31T21:29:00.000+08:00

Hi, everyone. Today is the eve of Teachers' Day. Yay! Finally some nice rest after a stressful term and before the upcoming EOY exams. After arriving in school in the morning, i went straight to the staffroom to give my presents to the respective teachers. Actually its only 3 teachers... cos i was contrained by time and money when i bought the gifts. ) : So eventually, i gave Mr Sim a cup, Mrs Teng a glass ornament and Mrs Seck a candle.

Anyway, after this and the flag-raising ceremony, i went to Kah Kee Hall to watch the celebrations, which was essentially quite *uninteractive*. I think even the teachers were a little bored, as there were too many rock band performances (no offence to those people). Of course, there were still some nice performances, like the one by Dao Teng (shao4 nian2 song) for the Hwa Chong Idol competition. Since there was nothing much to watch, I sat with boon wei from 3E, reading sun1 zi3 bing1 fa3 as well as crapping all the way. lol.

So after the celebrations had ended, i met up with yong lin. Since it was quite early, we thought of going back home to bathe and change first before going back to St. Anthony's. However, soon we realised that we did not prepare any present for Mrs Yacob... so we decided to go to West Mall first before going home. We took 852 from school, which proved to be as wise choice... 852 was like speeding all the way. In all, the journey was less than 15 min! A bit siao... this was half the usual time needed. Anyway, after comtemplating for quite a long time, we decided on giving Mrs Yacob a mug, a card + artificial flowers.

So after this, we went back home and went to SAPS. Actually after all this, both of us were a little late, since many people from 6-2'02 are already there. Let me see... there were Yueyang, Kai Qing, Li Tang, Pei Zhi , Chung Yan, Mark, Magnus, Shuo Tian, Mikel, Guanwen, Petrina, Angeline, Natalie, Jasmine, Sherwin and Gerald, and also me and Yong Lin. So all of us went to meet Mrs Yacob. We chatted with her for some time, and went to West Mall (again!) for lunch, after which we went to see a movie: The Maid. Hmm, it was quite nice... not that scary afterall. This was my first attempt at watching a horror movie. Haha. But since the movie was about the 7th month and in the Singaporean context, the whole exprerience was very enjoyable. But of cause, there were parts that were scary enough to frighten me.

Hmm... i'm still quite excited about the movie, so i'll give you a synopsis of it. The movie is about a Filipino maid named Rosa who has just arrived in Singapore during the lunar seventh month. The family that she works for lives in a very old shophouse-styled building. Her sir and ma'dam had a retarded son called ah soon, whom in the beginning seemed like a nice person who often played with her. Initially when she arrived, she was very curious about the Chinese customs practised during the 7th month. However, many ghastly things happened to her along the way. After numerous encounters with the ghost, she found out eventually that this was actually the ghost of the previous maid, named Esther.

One day, Rosa heard the sound of a Chinese drum coming from a locked room. She opened it using the keys and was horrified to see that the drum was erm... how to say, shaking? I mean it seems that the drum was being hit by itself. Though Rosa was scared, she took a pair of scissors and thrusted into the drum... only to find that a skeleton inside it --- the remains of Esther. When Rosa turned around, she finally saw Esther face-to-face. By some means, Esther communicated with Rosa and told her about how she died. 2 years ago, Ah Soon had raped Esther while playing with her, despite being retarded. Esther became distraughted and wanted to call the police, but was stopped by the sir and ma'dam, who burned her to death. After he rdeath, Ah Soon was upset (since he liked her) and committed suicide shortly after. (So now, you can see that the present Ah soon was a ghost)

Anyway, Rosa tried to escape after knowing the truth, but was caught by her sir and ma'dam. They tied her up and further elaborated the truth. Their biggest wish was to see Ah soon get married, yet he had already died. The only way that dead people can get married is that a live person must say yes to the marriage before she was killed. So, they planned to kill Rosa and sacrifice her as a wife for ah soon. However, just as Rosa was being hanged (while wearing a traditional Chinese bridal gown), Ah soon suddenly realised that she was not Esther and remembered that the real Esther was already dead. So in a fit of anger, he pushed his father away from Rosa, causing him to knock over the alter accidentally and was burnt to death. Then, Esther freed Rosa (who was being hanged from the ceiling) by buring the rope. Immediately, Rosa escaped out of the house and crossed the road. Upon this, the ma'dam rushed out with a knife and tried to kill her, but she was ran down by a lorry and died while crossing the road. After all this, Rosa went back to the Philippines, carrying the ashes of Esther's remains back.

After watching the movie, the 10 of us, Yueyang, Kai Qing, Li Tang, Pei Zhi, Chung Yan, Guanwen, Petrina, Natalie Yong Lin and I went to CDANS for bowling and Laserquest. I 'm very noob at bowling, so i only mananged a pathetic score of 31 while Guanwen achieved 83. Waa... very diu1 lian3 lor... After this, we went downstairs to play Laserquest! This was my first time playing this, so i was amazed. The 7 girls wanted to play 7 versus 3, in their favour. Luckily the guy in-charge made arrangements, so petrina and litang went over to our side. The guy grouped us into one group of 5 (green), one group of 4 (red) and one mixed group consisting of just Yueyang. lol. Yueyang playing SOLO all the way, no wonder her lights were of mixed colour! Eventually, my ranking was 6th with a score of 260. Yong Lin was the pro-est; he scored almost 1000 points.

So we went home after that. Today was really packed with fun activities, made especially fun since it was spent with ex-classmates. Definitely one of the most relaxing and fun days ever!

2005-08-28T01:10:00.000+08:00

Haha.. I'm already very excited about my new blog... so i have decided to post another entry on the same day.

Something quite interesting happened today (or rather yesterday cos its already past 12 midnight)... i was rushing for a secetariat meeting with justin, danhong and yiling held at kap. Since i was rushing for time, i decided to take bus 985 to kap rather than the usual 66, 174 or 157 which i took to school. Big mistake. I had initially thought that 985 was turning into Jalan Anak Bukit just like the above-metioned 3 buses (after which i thought would go on a different route). So, my original plan was to get down at the bus-stop at Jln A.B, walk a short distance, then cross the road to kap. Never did i expect that 985 did not turn into Jln A.B, but went on straight.. towards PIE! Siao... yi4 qu4 bu4 hui2 tou2, the bus went all the way to a place somewhere near toa payoh. Fortunately, i stopped at the only bus-stop on the expressway, crossed the only overhead bridge there and realised that 151, 154 and 156 (buses to sch) can be found on the opposite bus-stop. So i took 154 to kap... and was 1 hour late for the meeting! Haiz... I dunno what to say... feeling so dumb.

Anyway, Teacher's day is coming this Thurday. Last Thurday i went to West Mall and bought a gift for Mrs Teng, even though my original intention was not this. Quite expensive... but its nice. Its an ornament made up of glass, so i guess it would suit her. Hmm.. i dunno whether i got any time left to buy presents for the other teachers (no more money on that day) cos Chemistry test is coming.. yet i still dunno when issit. Haiz.

Hmm.. i guess this entry is not properly structured (as in i had spoken of writing about the past 9 months but had not done so in this entry). Sorry about this, cos its quite late now... and I'm also not in the right mood for doing so. Bye!

2005-08-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

With this first entry, i officiate the launch of my newest blog. Haha... Anyway, for those who know me and have been reading my blog last year, i have finally decided to start blogging again after 9 months of abondoning the previous one. For me, this is considered a great achievement after undergoing so much da4 feng1 da4 lang4 these past few months. However, despite so, this does not mean dat i will have time to blog regularly like last year... cos there is indeed too much work to do all the way till the end of this year. But for starters, hello to all!

If you have realised, the template for this new blog is basically the same as last year's... just that i changed the picture. I know its very plain.. so i may decide to find a nice one when i'm free. Actually, i decided to create a new blog to "start afresh", and also because i don't wish to touch the old blog, which has become a "classic" and part of history.

By the way, if you wish to visit my old blog, go to http://mgco3assiduous.blogspot.com.

That's all for now... i will fill you in with the details of these past 9 months if time permits the next time!